Posted by BARBARA on December 20, 2004:

Happy Birthday Jody. I remember all the ones we shared together, and all the ones you made special for me and my boys. I know you are in that realm of truth now, and you see what the carnal mind can't and doesn't see. I'm sorry for the way that person/people are using this site as a platform for personal vendetta, this is not in harmony with the way you lived or believed, and I above all people know that. What kind of person would use a personal eulogy site to exploit OUR relationship unless they had a personal reason???? I'm sorry Jody, but we both know too well how human emotions can rob one of reality. Isn't it nice to be in a place where the world of duality no longer exists? Love isn't being something for or to someone else, Love is what's left over when all the rest fades away. I was mad everytime I came here and read a new post that made it sound like I was the reason for your misery, but I know better. I know the story of US and I think it's funny that someone else feels compelled to try and paint me as the wicked witch who somehow made your life unbearable. When in truth it was I who left you because my life was unbearable............not because I didn't love you but because I felt like blending our families was too hard and was not making us happy as people. There was never any poision hurled either way, and we handled it as if we were big brother and sister. That's how you were, always the gentlemen, with the heart of gold. I remember Jody, all you sacrificed and how you tried to make it work with all your heart and so did I, had I not had kids it would've been so easy, but I did, and I had to go with my maternal instincts as to what was best for them as well as your kids too. WE just couldnt' find the way to bring it all together. Too many emotions, too many resentements and too many teenagers all at the same time. God knows we tried, but we were outnumbered so to speak. Anyway, that's all past history, but just for the record I want it recorded here so the next person who posts will not be so uniformed and type the usual blanket statmetn about how sad he was and glad to get out of the marriage............baloney. The same person is writing these posts and I don't know why, But Let me ask you this, were you there through his cancer treatments, and his intenstine removal emergency surgery, and then there were the periocarditis attacks every winter, rushed to hospital with chest pains, and the endless angioplasity to find out how many arteries were blocked and when he could do the bypass. Such was our life together for 10 years, it was always there waiting to suck the life out, admittedly it took a long time for that to happen but eventually it did take it all. All but the Love we had for one another. I hope you will be considerate of that when you are painting that dark cloud, because in reality I was what he held onto when he felt like he had nothing else............this is the truth. Before and after the divorce. Please get your facts straight before you slander me or him. BARBARA

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