Posted by Brittany Olson on December 11, 2009:

Hey Daddy, I am almost done with my first semester of my Junior year of college. 2010 will mark 9 years since the accident. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about you and how much I miss you. Sometimes at night I just cry because I miss you so much. After all these years I still miss you. I think about how you will never get to meet Jr. Or how I will never be able to explain to him just how amazing you were. He asked mommy if he could marry me and she said yes. He is an amazing man and I know you would love him. He wants to be a doctor in the Navy. Everyone tried to persuade him to go Army but his dad was in the Navy so he is kind of loyal to it. You will never get to meet my kids. They will never know just how amazing their grandfather was. Words just don't do you justice. I wear your dog tag. It's a little reminder of whose daughter I am and what that means. This is all so scattered but I just can't find the words to tell you how much I wish you were here. I imagine how different my life would be. I never would have messed things up so badly in high school. I feel so ashamed for how I acted just because I was selfish and sad. I want to help people not make mistakes like I did. I want my loss to help someone. I know God had a plan with it all. As much as losing you hurt I am in a really good place now. I would trade it all for you but that isn't an option. I am proud of what I have made for myself though. I will be graduating college in a year and a half and starting my own family. I know you will always be there watching over me. I know I can always feel your presence. But god damn I miss you daddy. I almost forgot about TJ. You would be so proud of him. He is such an amazing young man. He is taking his drivers test next week. I remember holding him in my arms when he was crying at your funeral and now he towers over me. He is almost 6 feet to my just over 5 feet. He is so handsome and strong. He reminds me of you more and more every day. He is a natural leader just like you. He has such a presence and a personality an he lights up a room in a way I have never been able to. I know he hurts for you. He was only seven when it happened and I know he wishes he knew you better. He is so lucky to have your friends around to remind him how amazing you were. Sometimes I feel ashamed because I can't remember certain things about you. But we were so young. We took everything for granted because we didn't know any better. Who imagines that one day they're going to wake up and have a broken family? But we made it. We miss you but our time with you has given us the strength to make it without you. No one has ever had a father like mine. You were an amazing father. I love you.

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